Someday I will give back the love and prayers that have been gifted to me. Someday I will be more like who God created me to be. Not sure that will be tomorrow or next week or next month. Hoping that time comes soon. Hoping that I can do the work I need to do. Hoping I don’t lose hope.
Quiet. Who gets quiet…really quiet? I like the quiet but often my thoughts and concerns fill it. I like to think that Jesus is sitting in the other chair. We just sit together, not necessarily talking or doing anything. Just being…together. That helps quiet me.
I don’t trust a lot of people and I admit, often I don’t think I trust God to the extent that He asks of me. However, He waits for me, He gives me what I need to encourage me…to give me hope of healing and for my future. He has set me on a path of His design and I often follow the rabbit trail or stop and crawl under a rock, thinking I can't go on. I need to walk when He says walk, to listen when He speaks, to rest when He says I am done for now. I am listening more and more and am finding some peace in the chaos.